So, I had the day planned with projects to do, pictures to identify and lunch with my sister, when I get this call cancelling the whole day....hard to swallow when your mom says "no I don't feel like going out today". After a thought or two that probably shouldn't have entered my mind, I swallowed hard, indeed, saddened by the lost opportunity and lost moments with her that will be more difficult to recapture as time goes by.
Still had lunch with my sister...made a great effort not to bring the subject up (we had already talked) and to just enjoy lunch. Conversations over TV shows that have come into view as the new season opens up, scrapbooks we are working on, our kids, my grandkids, our recent trip to the coast, the rainy days we have had....but neither of us wanted to bring up the subject of our Mom. Too painful to feel rejected, as she was rejected three weeks ago and told to stay "out of her life". My, what has God planned for us??? The journey is probably just beginning and we must remember to keep our armor up!
Disappointment---maybe I should have insisted but treading in deep waters or walking on thin ice. Patience!!
